Unsavory Inclinations

I'm sick of Christians who only worship what Paul wrote

you could give it your all and just get your balls broke
read Ecclesiastes, it's all pointless, it's all smoke
some people walk planks, others walk ropes
some walk on red carpets while I walk both
some people walk in the shadows enough to haunt ghosts
and deal in secrecy, and they seem to be who we fault most

but what if the victims were the suppliers
of all the tools they need to weaponize your desires
you think the scumbag is the salesman and not the buyer
but you pay them for their poison and beg the rich to be hired
now you're just a wagecuck with your nine to fiver
making money for the privileged until the day you retire
I'd rather rip off my own penis with pliers
and jump in a lake of fire like I'm an olympic diver
cause' consumerism fuels the jet to fly your
favorite billionaires to islands where they all molest minors

I hate people who try to deem what's appropriate
corruption hides behind censorship, stop promoting it
some fucked up shits going on, but no one knows of it
cause' youtube will take it down as soon as you post a clip
I'm sick of not being drunk and high while on opiates
give rum and coke to mix and some dope to hit
if I get married, I'll be the husband who's throwing shit
like beer bottles at my wife after I choke the bitch
my goal is this: be a fat drunk piece of shit soaked in piss
 who struggles with drug addiction and homelessness

Hey, what's up FishChaser. How are you today?

This is some of the best stuff you've written.

Yeah, it was pretty good!

I'm ready to use live ferrets as nunchakku to assault people with.

Good metric.

You seemingly find angst inspirational.

I guess I did once.

I put it down to hormones.

As I've aged, things have got fluffier.

Though the bottom line is,  existence necessitates doing something...Could be A, could be B.

And when one reaches fluffy age, one tends to realise that lifestyle A  was probably a better option than lifestyle B.

Nonetheless, good metric.

Which will no doubt resonate with angst ridden youth.

I think I will stay young forever then.

My goal is actually to reach a point where I am calm and content. I was lying at the end of the verse.

Draconian meditation gets you there quickly. But after it you reach a point where you have to pretend to be upset to make things interesting.

how does draconian meditation work and is it something jesus would approve of?

Probably not.

It has many ways. The most basic one is to repeat 4 words over and over in your thoughts. Those 4 words must represent your wish directly. For example, repeating: "I want complete peace" over and over, especially in situations when you feel really upset. The reason why it has to be 4 words is because even number of words has a more calming effect. If you write sentences with even number of words each, you will see that they sound more calm. Then you have to write down these words you are repeating often. Write them down at least once a day somewhere where it is special. Then also make symbols to further empower these words now. The most basic simbol are two circles. Write words inside one circle, and then draw another circle around first circle then. After that, pray to God of your choice. Ask  him to grant your wish. Just  do this once per day for start. If it helps, you can also draw or write on your arm instead of paper too. Make offering to the God you are praying too. The simple way is leaving quality chocolate on the altar or burning it in a fire simply. Ask God to give you knowledge on how to achieve greater peace. As I say to all atheists and others, give this way a try. You lose nothing, but you will be surprised by results.

Now, draconian is usually about worshipping dark Gods, but the same way can be applied to any God you pray to.

Yes, we are an organism driven by A. Encoded instructions, but we also have B. A highly developed mind.

The ensuing conflict between A and B, is sometimes hard to reconcile.

How far are you from your goal?

Much too far, I need to find a heroin dealer and get my parents to kick me out ASAP.

Sounds like you have a plan.