Everyone here knows that I am not a Christian.
I believe in God, but not in Christian God specifically.
However, in past few days, the evidence was really crushing me.
First I was thinking about near death experiences. I assumed they were people's imagination. But yes, they do seem to happen specifically to Christians. But I figured that one probably just isnt researched enough.
Then Jesus's ressurection and apostles's suffering. There is plenty of proof that Jesus indeed died on a cross, so I didnt even bother to challenge that one. But I did try to provide alternative explanation. For example, Jesus existed and died, and apostles made up whole story about ressurection. But three things dont make sense. Why would they even do that? Why did so many people there believe them? And most importantly, why would they risk their lives, get tortured and killed over this lie? The only explanation I could come up with is that given thousands of years, chance of something like this happening at least once would increase.
And then I get hit with another piece of evidence: actual miracles.
So by mere chance, I run into some book called "61 minutes to miracle".
So I research it, and its a case of a woman who gave birth to a baby that was dead by medical standards. Baby had no any heart beat. The woman prayed for somewhat over an hour. And after a whole hour, baby's heart started beating. I researched to see if its scientifically possible. By science, after just 10 minutes without a heart beat, there would be either death either severe brain damage. But this was whole hour without a heart beat. After whole hour without a heart beat, there was no brain damage and baby was alive, and grew up into actually healthy person. I tried making some explanation for this case, but no explanation made any sense. The miracle happened after an hour of long powerful prayer. And then I find out that there are more miracles like this which happened.
The evidence is just too much for me here. Jesus is basically everything what you would expect of an all good God to be, and I have to say these past few days where really overwhelming for me. I mean, I am not Christian, but I cant deny that there is something in Christianity. I can understand why people believe in it. They probably had small miracles happen in their own life which they cant explain in any other way but divine. I had things happen in my life with different types of magic, but I cant explain why Christians have any miracles if their God isnt real.
