I sometimes muse on my Atheism,
One of the reasons I became an Atheist, was the difficulty of ascertaining certainty in the Bible,
It's vast, a giant puzzle of thousands of years of history and philosophy,
Arguing on meanings,
Questions just keeps branching out and out and out. . .
But there is much in life I 'do accept and identify or hearken to, without worrying much on gaining absolute knowledge or certainty of understanding.
I'm not sure it's even that I want the Bible to be 'Right, for me to identify as one,
I just want for 'certainty on what everything in it 'IS and means,
But such is impossible.
And 'yet, I am 'Not bothered by my lack of certainty in 'other histories, of Earth, or America, of technology, of American law. . .
. . .
Hm, well, wouldn't matter 'anyhow, with my Atheism being 'now partly from my Materialism viewpoint of reality, (Doubts because of problems such as Being and Consciousness aside)
Also the problem of even if I believed, I think I still wouldn't be motivated to fully follow the Bible, love myself, my Ego, and Pleasures too much.