janesix

I really don't understand faith. It seems a bit silly to believe in something you cannot prove, at least to yourself.

That being said, I suppose faith is useful, mainly for the purpose of not going insane.

For instance, I rely on faith that I exist, that there is a reality beyond me, that I have free will.

Maybe not. There is the possibility that there is only one way to create a universe.

I am starting from the other end. I believe there is a God, but I don't know "which" God it is. As I explore the creation, I get to know about God, in bits and pieces. For one, God is a mathematician. There's a start.

atoms aren't physical. Nothing is.

Ok, so I really wanted to read the invisible life of addie larue, but I was aiming for non-fiction. So I chose Games Primates Play. I really wanted both, so I got both, just ordered a few minutes ago.

For thou shalt worship no other god: for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God:

Exodus 34:14

wtf?

A day or two ago is when I noticed it. I was reading a thread on another site about the Mandela effect ( because I was just reading for fun because i don't believe it, and I was trying to distract myself from other things. ) But then some of it really started to bother me, because it seems to be true. The first thing that freaked me out was that new zealand was in the wrong place. I looked out of curiosity, and realized it definitely IS in the wrong place. So then I took a look at pictures of the human skeleton and organs, and they were totally different from what I remembered. Totally out of balance, with organs in the wrong place. It wasn't the harmonious body that I remember. I am ordering a golden ratio measuring implement as soon as I have some money. Then I will check these "new" skeletons and see if I am right. A while back I started seeing tons of new words , several a day. I've read hundreds if not thousands of books, I rarely find a new word. 

I REALLY HOPE some of you guys come along and debunk this to my satisfaction, because I am REAlly creeped out.

Another thing is that my body has been feeling really achy and uncomfortable, and I haven't been sick or lazy or anything. Some foods smell weird,and taste weird too. Stuff I love like hot chocolate and ice cream. Is my mind/body connection out of balance because I switched timelines/universes?

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist coming up. I will tell her about this, see if I can switch meds or something, and maybe this will go away.

Also the English language has changed, tons of new words, misspellings, odd phrases, enough that Ive been having trouble reading and speaking.

No I mean the structure of the entire human anatomy has completely changed. Skeletal, internal organs etc. I haven't done any measurements yet, but at a glance, it looks unproportional.

Maps of the earth have changed. New Zealand used to be NE of Australia for instance. Greenland way too big, and now associated with Denmark somehow. Countries have changed in size as well China and India way too small, Russia way too big.

Another change I'd like to mention is dozens of new words I keep finding for the last month or so. And I have always been good with English, there are just way too many new words lately, that are supposedly not new.

Changes in Bible.

Changes in world map (big, noticeable changes)

The ribcage is bigger, the liver is way too far up and too big, kidneys too far up. Looks very unproportional to my eyes. Eyes have bone i the back where they used to be hollow. It is just very "wrong". It is like there was an"upgrade" over night. Although it doesn't seem like an upgrade, more like a down grade to a more robotic, fake like appearance, there is no harmony to it, no beauty like there used to be.

There are many other changes to the world as well, and we can get into those if you would like.

I've read ender's game, good book, although OSC as a tendency to make every single character an asshole and very negative all the time. I can't remember if I read ender's shadow, i used to read a lot of science fiction as a teen.

Skyrim, hundreds, maybe thousands of hours.

Although I've been playing for like a decade, this is my first real mage character I've stuck with. Having loads of fun, most building a mage to defeat the Ebony warrior.

The only two other games I ever play are Diablo 2 and Age of empires 1

Thanks keep them coming guys:)

I usually buy one book a month, and for February I want you guys to pick my book for me. Has to be on a religious, philosophic, scientific, or occult/esoteric topic.  Price range around 20 dollars or less plus shipping. Has to be found on Amazon.

I will only do this if I get at least ten choices from you guys (anyone can choose more than one book) And once I have ten choices, I will choose one and buy it February 1st.

Serious books only, jokes will be ignored.

I will read and review within two weeks.

Could be.

And then there are the interdimensional beings.

All my synchronicities have been pointing to one thing lately- (something I have never really been interested in until NOW) and that is ALIENS. More specifically, humnoid or even HUMAN ALIENS.

They are telepathic, at least some of them are. I think they have been contacting me. 

What do they teach at your church? I am not familialar with that religion.

I am only sort of. I really am a mixed bag. I have some very conservative views, like I am against abortion and for closed borders. But I also have some liberal views, such as rights for gays and transgender people, which only came about after having gay and transgender children. I am learning.

I have been shown things in dreams, that seem to have validity. Other ways too.

They show me things I did not know. THat is how I know they are real.

I don't know which God designed the universe, if indeed it is designed. I am not a member of any religion. I don't know if there are other Gods. I know there are other entities. 

I did not meet God face to face, I only heard Him speak and felt His presence. And yes it was a male.

I guess you are asking what is proof for me. 

Personal experience of God is the #1 factor. Then there is the design inherent in the universe.

I don't need any more "proof" than I already have. 

You are correct so often.

Yes.

No.

I sometimes wish I had a "guide" or guru of sorts to help me put the pieces together. I sort of do, but I'm not sure who he/she/it is, I call it the Universe, there is a definite entity helping and teaching me. But I have a thick skull, and I tend to go over and over the same bits all the time. It has been a ten year process for me. 

I guess though, if the answers were handed to me, I would miss the mystery which is a significant and pleasant, sometimes exciting part of life. 

I guess it would be boring if we knew everything.

My mother raised me and my sisters in an atheist/materialist world. She, and then then her daughters, ridiculed and laughed at anything to do with religion, spirituality or paranormal. It wasn't until well into adulthood that I had second thoughts(or really ever thought about it at all). I didn't know my dad believed in God, or that my sister was a Christian until I was an adult and religious myself. I actually thought when I was younger that people who believed in that "stuff" were not very intelligent, and that it was superstitious mumbo-jumbo for sheep. 

I think that most people just believe what they are told when they are young, and their attitudes are hard to change. 

My materialist attitude is so ingrained that Ive carried it with me even to this day. I still look for the nuts and bolts of how everything "works"(which is good, but it tends to be a material answer I always look for). 

Science is the modern day religion. Most atheists don't even understand it, they just repeat the watered-down versions  of whatever they hear. In an argument or discussion, I always know what they are going to say. 

The one thing I do know is that nobody knows what the F is going on. I bet someone up there is laughing at our hubris.

Why are secret societies, like the masons, rosicrutians etc secret? They are supposedly modern mystery schools, and the ancient mystery schools were secret as well. What's the secret, and why are they hiding? I can understand that during the middle ages that they had to hide things from the church, but before and after that? What's the deal?

The liberal snowflakes have taken over. They love censorship, but only if it's a conservative.

This era is the Age of Man, Aquarius. Consciousness is at it's lowest level in the precession. 

So you are saying that precession is beginning in Aquarius?

Synchronicities, supplemented by conscious planning for coincidence, especially with the number 7. Yes, the elite does this, and so does the Universe. Google Kamala Harris wrestler and you will see. Decide for yourself, if plan(magical ritual) or Universal synchronicity. I am not sure.

Yes, another annoying thread on free will or fate.

Does it have to be one or the other? Or is it just my wishful thinking, that there could be a reality where both are involved?

Because I KNOW at least some things are set up, probably by the Universe. Because "coincidences" or "synchronicities" always occur through the Universe showing me that there is predestination. And I don't like it. 

A typical type of synchronicity for me is the electronic type. I get two or more instances in a short period of time, I mean instances of the same phrase, idea, word, experience, picture, anything. It usually shows up in unrelated videos, websites, shows, etc. Usually the synchronicity has very little or no apparent meaning. But as time goes on, the synchronicities are showing a pattern. Like I could have a seemingly meaningless synchronicity, and a year or two later, I have another that ties into the one I had a long time ago.

Lots of times I will just get an "urge" to look up a certain topic, a seemingly innocent topic, and then have a whole manic episode that can last for weeks or months, where I am led through coincidences from one thing to the next. And I get the euphoria reward, or an altered state of consciousness. And sometimes it is the opposite, with the synchronicities forming an idea that sends me into panic and extreme anxiety. (Either way, I tend to have extreme reactions)

Then there are the non-electronic type where it involves books and other non electronic media. When these occur, it shows that a set up for coincidence can take years to develop, and that the only explanation can be a predetermined outcome.

So fate is real. It has to be. But I don't understand why there is spiritual growth supposedly happening. And it often involves my personal decisions, morality etc. Things that involve free will and choice, choosing between good and evil etc. 

So what the heck is going on?

What does this ACTUALLY mean, in literal terms? 

Holographic universe?

Fractal universe?

Ye are Gods?

This has popped up frequently in my synchronicities. Mostly in the form of, that the outside is a reflection of the inside. A while back, I was pretty paranoid that the outside world was LITERALLY a reflection of my inner world, the turmoil, the changing sociopolitical environment (not just the US, but the whole world.)

Any thoughts would be appreciated. 

In which house does the Precession begin? My thought has always been that it begins in Leo, but it could also begin in Aries. Some people even say it starts in Aquarius, but I really doubt that.

Do you think it is possible to reach God without meditation, prayer, or yoga?

And you believe that?

Ok so there is a ghost in my house, the other morning it finished my cereal, and I know I didn't just forget I ate it. All the milk was gone too and I never drink the leftover milk out of the bowl. Of course it could have been my dog, but she wasn't up at the time, unless she came out into the living room where my cereal was on the table, ate it, and then went back to bed in the time it takes me to smoke half a cigarette. 

The other thing was a couple of weeks ago, but weird things have been happening lately, and it all adds up eventually. Ok, I went into my bedroom and there were two pencils on the floor in front of my bookshelf. The pens and pencils are far back on the shelf, on a shelf with no books, and couldn't have gotten knocked down by me, my boyfriend(he wasn't there) or the dog. This would be weird but forgotten, but a day or two later, I walked into my room and there were two pens on the floor in the same spot. Again, it wasn't my boyfriend gaslighting me, or going through my things, because he was at work.

I don't really believe in ghosts or anything, but I am sometimes paranoid and this has me a little bit on edge. Any thoughts?

153 is a very important canonical number. It shows up in a variety of places that concern the Mysteries. It is part of a trinity of special numbers (33, 153, 273) all being important as stand alone or in conjunction with other numbers in the canon. The trinity of numbers are equidistant on a 360 degree number wheel, creating an equilateral triangle.

153 is found in the creation of the vesica piscis. If 265 units verticle is divided by 153 units horizontal through the vesica, then you get the square root of three. This vesica is what is being referred to in the New Testament story where Jesus tells his disciples to cast their net on the other side, with a catch of 153 fish. 

153 is also found in the Great Pyramid. If you divide 481, the intended height of the GP, by 153, the length in feet of the Grand Gallery, you get PI.

153 and the solar system. The square root of 153 is 12.369, which is the number of months in an Earth year. Also in the solar system, Plutos revolution is 153 hours, and Charon's(plutos moon) orbit is 153 hours.

I will add more later, once I extract some more facts from my notes.

Both thoughts and actions. Selfishness. Greed. Taking more than my fair share of the worlds resources. Sometimes just being a jerk, being mean with the intention of making someone else feel bad.

I am trying to figure out what "personal control" means. I suppose it means self-control, but I'm not sure.

It's a little bit dead. 

With Cloud Atlas being my current favorite movie, I decided to read the book. I can't get into it and I am having to force myself into reading it, and I'm only 15 or so pages in. It is nearly unbearably boring, I don't understand half of it, and I want to quit reading it. 

Has anyone read this book, and does it get any better? I don't want to waste my precious time that could be better spent playing a new Skyrim character for the 50th time.

Well I've heard that, but is it really true? Or is it just a cliche? Has any study been done that shows that?

Best dream lately involved Matt LeBlanc, I won't go into details though. I didnt even know I was attracted to him.

I would choose something like a priest initiate in ancient egypt, when the Great pyramid was being built. I'm not sure if they had female priests, but I would accept being a man if it would get me in the door.

Sounds like me

Have you thought about it this way, that those who are hungry for power are those that strive for it, and they are already"corrupted" or just plain selfish beings? The majority of us don't seek power, so the ones who want it get it.